I feel like writing about love today because he makes
every inch of me smile with excitement and I swear it’s the scariest feeling
ever. I’ve taken some time to assess why and all I can come up with is I don’t
want it to end it’s just to richly sweet, exciting and fun. It feels like the feeling you
get when you are in a room with your favorite people sharing a good laugh and
everyone is truly enjoying the fun moment. It feels like that exciting rush you
got when you were a kid and it was time to go to bed on Christmas eve that anticipation for what the morning would bring. {Of course this is before you
were told Santa wasn’t real.} It feels like the warmth you get in your heart
when a baby smiles at you and they don’t even know you but it’s still sweet and
it makes your heart melts. I mean who doesn’t smile back at a smiling baby?
In the beginning I found myself thinking about the
difference in how I feel about him than I have in my past two relationships.
The major difference being, how EASY it is to honestly communicate my feelings and actively listening to him share his feelings. I noticed how I will swiftly apologize
if needed and accepting of constructive feedback. I want what we share to last but
more importantly I want it to continue to grow stronger. II Corinthians 13:4-8 talks about
what love is and I remember using it in a paper I wrote for an English class
many years ago but it’s funny because now I really understand what love means, how it
should translate into positive behavior not just feelings. For instances there
is a part where it states “it keeps no record of wrongs” the few times an
apology was needed in my current relationship are not reoccurring incidents. There is no desire to actively maintain a mental record of what
happened, only enthusiastically reaching forward for what’s to come and leaving
yesterday’s issue where it belongs. We acknowledge with acceptance that we are imperfect and we don't hold it against each other. I love the smallest things he does for me the best and appreciate everything we do to maintain a healthy friendship in the midst of loving one another. It’s imperative that there is a good balance of quality time together, time shared with friends and loved ones as well as time alone. I like that we encourage each other to reach our goals and remain open to suggestions. The sight of him warms my body and every embrace we share is valuable in supporting our solid infrastructure. “When I see your face there’s not a thing that I would change cause you’re amazing, just the way you are…” Sorry ya’ll I had a teenage moment, but you’ll have to give me a few more seconds to tell him;
Thank you Love, for being an impeccable man, sharing your
heart, thoughts, feelings, perspectives, being honest, saying “I’m sorry” and
meaning it, protecting me, wiping my tears away, kissing my forehead,
supporting me, telling me I can, not causing me heartache, driving across town
to put money in the meter so my car won’t get ticketed, holding my hand,
opening the door, asking for my input, listening to my aspirations, loving me
and offering me your last name….
Love is about cherishing
every single moment you have with the person you say you love even in difficult
moments. There isn’t a need to “force it” because its natural…. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it
is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not
easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always
trusts, always hopes and always perseveres. Love never fails.”
Live Free and LOVE!
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